5 posts tagged “sammie jo”
Our workgroup got together tonight to celebrate(?) the last week of one of our favorite members: Anna (Banana) Larson. Since its a relatively small group, many of us are close, and I have to say that its hard to see someone leave. Especially someone like her. She has been there longer than I and is one of those people who makes work fun. I am the kind of person who can (and has) done some of the worst work imaginable, but if you do it with a group of people that you like, and you suffer together, it can still be a fun environment. She is the epitome of that.
It also sucks that I am losing her as a friend. She has entered my life in ways that very few people have. Initially she reminded me of the one who rests here...but she is an amazing woman in her own right. In many ways, she is the person that I always hoped that Sam would become. Anna has qualities as a woman that make her both breathtaking and mesmerizing and qualities as a person that make her a blast to be around. I am gonna miss her, and rest assured, my life will be a little more dim without her in it.
Goodbye Anna
Cause I miss her
Hello Everyone. I hope that you are having a happy holiday season.
I am going to put this out there so that someone...somewhere will one day read this and understand. At least a little (You will have to forgive my poor grammer; I am not exactly in a normal frame of mind).
So I met a girl named Sam a few years back. She was incredible-everything that I had ever wanted in a woman. I met her at work, and over the years we had developed a deep bond. The situation never really amounted to anything, as she had a serious boyfriend at the time. (A little bit about me: I still believe in love. I believe in soul mates. I believe that you can feel it when you are with someone whether or not you belong with them). As the years went on, I still loved this girl-just as much as I always have. We fell out of contact for the most part, only speaking casually. I had a major issue that took the wind out of my sails, and she was there for me in the beginning. Near the end however, it proved too much for her and she wasn't there for me. I never blamed her, because I understood what a terrible position it put her in. And besides, she has no real stake in the matter as I never was her boyfriend or anything. While it really hurt me, I never stopped loving her.
Some time later, we began being friends again. Things seemingly picked up right where they left off for the most part. We were having lots of fun and enjoying each others company. At this point I knew that her and I would never be a couple. She was still with the guy, and he wanted to take it to the next level. I began the process of adjusting myself to that. I must say that I did as well as anyone in my position could. While I still felt that she was my soulmate, I did all that I could to stamp that part of me away. As we were hanging out again, I was introduced to her best friend. A terrific girl named Jenna. She was a great girl, and we hit if off right away. She got my sense of humor…she just got me. It had been nearly 8 years since I had that much fun with someone. Granted, I was never put in the capacity to have fun like that, but still. I won’t drag on, but she is an amazing woman.
As my luck would have it, things were put in motion that had Sam and her boyfriend break up. She went through the requisite wild phase post-breakup. Then something unexpected happened. She began to like me…as a boyfriend. As you can imagine, the drama reached hurricane proportions. Actually, I am sorry everyone. I just now realized that if you don’t know the people involved, then this story won’t make any sense, nor have any relevance.
Bottom line-there was SEVERE tension between the two girls. These two girls were the best of friends, and I really mean that. I was coming between that. I had to somehow try to fix the problem, but there was no graceful way out. If I picked Sam, then Jenna would (rightfully) hate me and her. If I picked Jenna, then I would be giving up the chance to be with the person that I believe to be my soul mate, as well as angering her. You don’t get chances like that in this life. How the hell could I get out of this?
I did the only thing that I know how to do. It wasn’t pretty, and it breaks my heart more than anyone could possibly imagine. I chose to have them both hate me. In this effect, they are now friends again. And I am back where I started. For those that truly know me, then you know that I only have one thing left to do on my list now.
Sadly, since it is the holidays, I want to wish all of my friends over the years the very best.
Brooke Ashley-I love you.
Jacinda-I really miss you. I’ll never forget you. Love & Peace.
Lori-Best of luck with Max. You have been a great friend hon!
Travis-I am so sorry for being such a piece of shit to you. I still haven’t forgiven myself for ruining your wedding. I hate letting you down.
Brandon & Beth-I could say the same to you guys. You have always been so kind to me, and yet I always treat you so badly. I am sorry guys. Best of luck to you with Attitude Alley.
Janae-The world needs more of you. You are truly one of a kind. God bless you.
Everyone else-I am sorry for being such a shitty person over the years. I never quite figured out how to do it right. Know that I did the best I knew how. I never learned to love myself, so I may have loved you all very poorly. I hope that someday you can forgive me.
One last time…
Who would you like to kiss under the mistletoe?
Submitted by EmmyAngua.
Well, I can't lie...I would give pretty much anything to kiss Salma Hayek underneath the mistletoe. And much more! Hehehe...hohoho...
In reality however, I would want nothing more than to kiss my soulmate. It would seem that after all this time, and everything that has happened, I still feel the same way about her. I wonder what she is up to? Sigh...
For those of you that don't know me, I've been pretty sick as of late. Actually, it's been quite a while. At least it feels that way... Anyways, it has kind of gotten my spirits down. But today... Today is different. In what couldn't have come at a better time, I heard from the most important person in my life. I didn't even get to talk to them, but I heard from them and that was enough to let me know that they were thinking about me. And really, is there any better medicine than that?
I'm all smiles on the inside!
Cheers everyone and I hope you had a great Halloween! All you back to topics that have more significance tomorrow.
