The Breaking Point

Do you guys remember that post I made a couple days ago?  I need a vacation (http://jvaudio.vox.com/library/post/i-need-a-vacation.html).  Well, it turns out the girl that I was raving about, decided that I don't quite measure up to what she is looking for.  To be fair to her, she never said this.  She just felt that she wasn't ready for dating, and that she may be more happy with her ex.  I won't go into how this makes me feel, because I don't need anyone's pity, but for those that know me (both of you...) you know how that makes me feel.  Sometimes, I hate being right.  I don't blame her however, in fact, I think that perhaps it might be the best thing for her.  I hate to think that, I hate to think that I couldn't make her happy enough...but she is one helluva woman.  She truly is someone who possesses such qualities as to make you question your preconceptions on many, many topics.  It just breaks my heart that I wasn't good enough for her.  The thing that makes me the most sad about the whole situation is that I was never able to show her much about myself.  I feel that if she was able to get to know me better she wouldn't feel the way she does.  But such selfish thought is best left for me to ponder on my journey.  I wish her the very best.

With that said, it is time for me to finally go ahead with my Ganymede Elegy.  I've done this life for a long time, and I have been down so many roads.  A man gets tired after a certain point.  As intelligent as I am, I never figured it out.