Lost Odyssey

What a past couple of days!  Bear with me, because I have a headache from hell! 

• The Websites:  After the worst thing that could have happened to the sites did, I was completely freaking out!  Days-literally days-of work, was gone.  I had created the sites in Flash and uploaded them to my ftp with Expression Web no problem.  I needed to update the site and add/change links etc. so I opened it up in Expression Web.  I screwed up, and instead of opening the site folder, I opened my "Documents" folder.  Bear in mind that I have a 2 TB C: drive.  After loading all of my files (30 min.), I was pissed, but figured that I could fix it.  I selected all of the files, right-clicked and deleted them.  It didn't remove them from Expression Web, it REMOVED THEM FROM MY COMPUTER!!!  And it didn't prompt me either!  I was up all night panicking, rebuilding, contemplating drinking heavily, etc.  After a couple of days of straight work, the sites are fixed for the most part.  I am still missing all of my documents however.  Check them out:  www.jerryv.net  www.focusphotostudio.com
• Work:  Still undecided about what to do here.  Work for alot less money, less hours, yet still be expected to perform the tasks for my now vacant position?  That doesn't sound too thrilling to me.
• Life:  I am definately my own worst enemy.  I am a type A person by nature and I love getting sh*t done from my to do lists in Outlook.  Hell, its the reason that I bought a Pocket PC back in the day, and run a Mogul now.  After this clusterf*ck with the sites, my lists is both calling my name-no, its screaming it!-I am so far behind!  I feel like crap and I am tired as a mofo.  UGH!
• On a positive note, I wish to commend Bill Gates for all that he has done and accomplished, as well as what he is aiming to do through his foundation.  I remember writing my thesis on the antitrust trial of Microsoft, and to this day, I think that they got a raw deal.  If I hadn't lost all respect for our lawmakers, I would wish that they would take another look at antitrust laws and make some corrections.